William, I miss him so much. He left 8 days ago to Texas to visit his father, which is sweet. He really does love his dad. I wanted him to go, I wanted him to be happy and have a good time. I've lasted 8 days, I think I can last 3 more. I'll see him on the 30th, which is actually our 3rd month anniversary >///<

I can last, I really can, I've been telling myself time and time again "I can't do this, I'm gonna die," or "I can do this, only ___ more days left" and surprisingly I can wait.

I'll be so happy to see him, I almost cried when he told me how much he loved and cared for me and that was yesterday while he's still gone. I wonder if I truly will cry when I see him and he'll repeat what he had said the other day. I love him so much, and no one has ever cared for me as much as he has. Sometimes it makes me feel like I'm living in a fantasy, it's just so hard believe a guy like him will care so much for a girl like me. Even though it's hard to believe, I still believe it. I'm thankful, very thankful, I just hope he can see I love him just as much as he loves me.